I was looking for a hole

Hey man.

Good to see you again.

It’s Friday, meaning the weekend is around the corner, and if you asked me 6 years ago what I was looking forward for

I would have told you to go out and approach girls until I found one that wanted to come home with me.

Maybe that’s what you want right now.

And I don’t blame you, not at all.

I honor it.

Especially if you’re taking action and talking with girls (or guys) with the intention of something happening.

You’re courageous and awesome.

fist bump

Now, I want to challenge you (again?) (yes again) to look deeper

What is the reason for you wanting to find someone?

I know, I know…

The wet stuff happening

It’s awesome

But if you look deeper, you might discover that what you’re looking for has nothing to do with the shape of her body or the sound of her moan

You might discover that… what you actually want

is you.

Here’s what I mean

When you were little, you experienced expressing yourself and got punished for it

so you deemed that part of yourself as “not good enough”.

It’s ok, I got it too.

Now, it’s become a hole that hurts.

Very painful.

That’s why you’re looking for the quick fix

External validation

Again, I got it too

Now, this will help for a while (I kept going for years), but eventually you will come to the realization that you’ve been running in circles

And those tracks have become increasingly deep which makes it more difficult to get out of

So then, I invite you to look within

Literally, do it right now

Meet that pain

Embrace it

Relax into it

Breath

What will happen is you’ll start to feel worse, because all the shit starts coming up

and that’s fine

You’re courageous and awesome.

That’s it

I’m wishing you a blessed evening

Edin